RELIGION IS CHOKING MY CHRISTIANITY

I can't do it any more, It's now time to quit.

Sadly For years have tried to be a man that plays by the rules. the rules of family set by the elders, the rule of society set by the government; which I understand else disaster runs unchecked. Have been a good son and at least an A citizen. 

Shockingly, I still don't understand why i always feel small before the rules and regulations that has been preached to us by denominational system.  Why does religion seek to kill me. Religion seeks to bow my knees and head to a man.

Religion is when the church tries to play God in the life of God's children. making me search for what has been found and given freely in Christ. 

The commandment I understand, the scriptures I grasp and love but religion? man made religion? I can never figure out.

Religion always questions my faith in God and my love for him.
For example I was lead by the spirit years ago to leave a church and join another simply for my  spiritual growth. Following instructions, I was branded traitor, judged on every side by the congregants of my previous church treated me as though I back slided. with religion, every day is something new to be guilty for, Something new to atone for because it is regulated by men and for men.

They parade them selves as flawless making me small everyday, my uprightness regardless. Christians indoctrinated by men who are flawed but self-claim flawlessness.

I want God to deal with my heart wash me and make me perfect.  Structure me in his will

Jeremiah  18:3
Then I went down to the potter's house, and, behold, he wrought a work on the wheels.  18:4 And the vessel that he made of clay was marred in the hand of the potter: so he made it again another vessel, as seemed good to the potter to make it. 

18:5
Then the word of the LORD came to me, saying, 

18:6
O house of Israel, cannot I do with you as this potter? saith the LORD. Behold, as the clay is in the potter's hand, so are ye in mine hand, O house of Israel.

Why are these rules preached and upheld as though the rules died for you and I. Am not talking about the commandments and God's rule. Am talking about man's inclusion in this way of life. Religion claims supremacy of one denomination over another, one pastor over the other and raises members that will fight to defend their church and their man of God as against Bible narratives.

A pastor receiving incessant calls for prayers from members living very far away was reprimanded by one of his member as to why the members can not go to God themselves. The pastor replied and said: "you I am their man of God so when I show up and pray, God hears faster and better or it engenders speedy answers".
With such mindset are Christians enslaved to worship men.
We call our selves free but still we chose to be under a selected slavery, a yoke that has made you worshipers of men who worship money and fame.

James  5:13  Is any among you afflicted? let him pray. Is any merry? let him sing psalms.  
James  5:15  And the prayer of faith shall save the sick, and the Lord shall raise him up; and if he have committed sins, they shall be forgiven him.

With the above scriptures, I don't need anyone to pray to my father but if my faith isn't strong enough I can call on fellow brethren to go in agreement concerning the situation.

I can't take it anymore else I break, I need to speak my heart,
 you can tag me controversial, hypocrite; I don't care because I can feel something dying in me.

My Christianity isn't getting better and my God is pulling away. Every time I try to live by your standard, every time your religion take hold; my salvation becomes insipid and cold. God doesn't get closer but farther. Am tired, There must be a better way. 

This was my taught: why will the Holy Spirit which is easily grieved live in the inside of me and not by me?
Ephesians  4:30  And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption.
At least living outside will reduces the chances of grief.

Why? Why doesn't he just live outside and instruct us the same, why?

John  14:26 
But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you.

Just imagine your school class teacher living inside you,  this will be the prevailing happenings

1. The teacher will not assume that you grab what he or she is teaching while you dont
2. The teacher will have to know you on a personal level after all he is in you
3. The teach will have to understand you
4. The teach will know the pace at which he must lead you etc

I think it is because he want to know us on a personal level so as to better lead and help us at a pace That Won't kill us.

I have decided to only live by his word which have seen to be  in alignment with scriptures, find out the omissions, and put away every of your inclusions:
Matthew  4:4  But he answered and said, It is written, Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God.

No more religion, no more
No more will I be strong armed to shout at the top of my voice when I pray. Hannah was not told to pray the way she did at Shiloh it came naturally due to her pain. Notwithstanding, scriptures kicks against this:
Matthew  6:5 And when thou prayest, thou shalt not be as the hypocrites are: for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.
No more will I allow this system to make me feel guilty as though when I missed a church service, I missed God and am doom. No more

No more will I look down on my self and feel sad because I had nothing to drop in the offering basket. I have seen people who stayed at home from service because of lack offering.
After all, theses men preach out of context the below scriptures

Exodus  34:20
  . . . And none shall appear before me empty.

No more.

Author: I.Macpherson